Journal 55: Public Speaking

The fear of public speaking has always been a major flaw of mine. During presentations I would freeze up form time to time in fear of making a error that would make me a joke. More recently I have over came most of my fears for public speaking. However when in large crowds, especially ones with manly strangers, I choke ad sweet in fear. Both making a speech and reciting a poem can be difficult for me. Yet if I was to choose one or the other reciting a poem would be much easier for me. Simply because they are usually shorter. Many times when I write a speech it sound perfectly fine in my head and when I read it to myself a few of my friends. When I get on that stage or podium it becomes ten times harder for me to speaks as if I had a tennis ball stuck in my throat. 

For some reason I can't speak but I can act and sing fine in front of crowds. It seems to me that when I am acting or singing I lose myself in it and therefore the audience is no longer existing in my world. However once I get out of the spot light and into the sides of the stage the chills catch up with me again.