Journal 51: Pessimism

I believe that Dickinson wasn't always a pessimistic person but do to the life experiences she had gone through it changed her into a pessimistic person. She has loved men who she is not suppose to and knew that there would be no outcome from her contributions to the relationship. Then she chooses to live in recluse, away from society and be a loner. Her poems are full of sad morals and depressing tone. Unlike Walt Whitman the greatly optimistic may over optimistic poet, Dickinson seems to be his exact opposite. She didn't want her poems published during her life time in fear that it will not be successful. No person who is confident and optimistic will hide her volumes of original poems away for family members to find after her death. With all the information and poems, written by Dickinson I infer that she was a pessimistic person. Many times I feel pessimistic due to my over optimistic points of view. I always expect too high of something and when the reality emerges I am disappointed;therefore, some times I try being pessimistic. To be pessimistic and think of the worst that can happen when the reality is actually better and it makes me feel good again.